The struggle GAH!

I hate when you finally feel like everything is coming together and your feeling really good about things happening in your life. And then all of the sudden you get punched in the gut! I was finally feeling like I was getting somewhere with being able to put away a good chunk of money into my savings and also be able to give my parents some "rent" money to help them out with bills and stuff. All of the sudden you get told by your biggest expense the lovely daycare that they are going to be raising their prices and your child has to be full time to keep your daycare spot. FML!! I now have to pay $220 more a month in daycare and there really isn't much I can do about it at this point it's what Most daycares around here charged and I stupidly am not able to get subsidy for daycare which I would essentially have daycare totally covered if I did because I don't work a 9-5 job my job usually starts at 2 so they won't cover daycare. Awesome! Not! So this is where being a single mother and the total supporter sucks ass! I just keep telling myself that I'm going to come out on top and I will prevail I will make it! But OMG I can't deal with anymore curve balls or expenses cause as well as this lovely increase I also have a ton of dental bills about to come up if I do actually go to my appointment which I am strongly thinking about cancelling it at this point cause this momma is pretty broke right now. 

Doing things for myself!

So lately I haven't been doing anything for myself. Everything has been working working working some more taking care of my awesome daughter doing more work and so on and so fourth. I really haven't been taking care of myself the way I should be. I wasn't wearing makeup basically I would make sure my kid looked cute and I would walk out of the house looking like a hobo. I would throw my hair up in a bun or pony no makeup and go to work. I was feeling pretty shitty and not pretty at all. I finally decided the other day that enough was enough and I need to do more for myself especially with my life getting so busy I need to keep onto of making myself feel good and healthy. Therefore I went and got some new stuff which I will blog fully about in another post but I got a face cleansing water and moisturizer. Some new make up which I love!! Which I will also put in another blog. And the best of all I started blogging again. I even took the time yesterday to do my nails which I'm pretty happy with!

I also love! My new mug that I got at chapters for $8 😁. The next step in improving my life is to start eating better and get into a workout routine. 

I'm also currently trying to save up for a down payment on a house for L and myself cause I want to finally be independent. Business is picking up which I am so excited about and I'm really just working my ass off these days to bring in as much as I can to help make the best life for L. Fingers crossed it keeps staying busy and gets even busier next year! 

It's been a while

Well it's been a while since I last posted on here. I've been trying to figure out my life and spending as much time as I can on my daughter. I've started to become very busy in the last few months with both my jobs it's stressful but great. Life is starting to go in a direction that I am happy about and I'm really looking forward to it becoming so much better.  There is so much to look forward to! 

Been lost

Well as you can all tell I haven't written in a while. I'm sorry about that I just really haven't had time. I have been so busy with work and with Love its been crazy I hardly have time for myself. Oh wait that's right I don't have time for myself! I haven't been out in I don't know how long. I feel like I'm going to treat myself one of these nights to dinner and a movie on my own just to get out of the house. First I have to get my work done which I should probably stop writing this and get back to. I will try and get back at it on here and post some more stuff in a short while.

Just Haven't Had The Time!

I just haven't had the time to get on here and keep up with posting between 2 jobs and a toddler and keeping everything together I just haven't had the time. Today we went to support my dad as he participated in a charity event. I am very proud of him for all her does, Love was a little tyrant and didn't behave very well to say the least she had a melt down in the middle of a entrance to a parking lot because she wasn't allowed to walk by herself. She is super cute and I am loving every minute I get with her!

Sorry

Sorry I haven't posted in a while I have been so busy with my daily life and struggling with my little as she is being a pain in the butt she is refusing to change her clothes its driving me nuts.

The single parent struggle

I am a single mother I don't get help from my daughters (sperm donor) as we call him. He hasn't seen her since she was 7 months old and even then he had only seen her a few times before then. I live with my parents because I can't at this point afford to live on my own between daycare and diapers there is just no way I could swing it. I'm currently trying to save up for a down payment on a house so that I can move out of my parents house I don't want to have to share a bedroom with my child when she is 3 or 4. I hate the situation in in but I wouldn't trade my daughter for the world. I got paid today and as soon as that was in my account it was gone. I'm thinking I need another job or something but then I hardly see my girl as it is. I just really need my business to start bringing in more money to make me feel better about everything. I'm hoping that it will get really busy soon as the weather gets nicer so hopefully in the next month or so.