Empowering Myself

I have been single now for 2 years and yes sometimes its lonely but I'm kind of happy with it. I'm working on doing things for myself and L not letting anyone tell me I can or can't do things, not having someone tie me down and control certain aspects of my life. My last relationship I was in was a doozy. I didn't really understand how bad it was until it was over and I got out of it. Both L and I are a lot happier not being in that relationship anymore. It held me back I was being made to feel bad because I was working and trying to build something for myself. I'm working to build a life for L and I that we don't have to depend on anyone else and thats the life I want, I want to be able to say hey I did it I got here without a man. I am a strong, intelligent, and happy woman and that is exactly what I want people to see in me. In the past few months I took a huge leap and quit my part time job. My income is solely based on what I bring in with my business I am mine and Ls sole provider now I have to get my butt in gear everyday to bring home the bacon. I know I can do this and I know that in the next year big things are going to happen for us. I went and started my driving lessons so that I can get my license which will be a big step in becoming that much more independent. I can't wait for our future and what is to come for us I can't wait to see what I can do with my business this year I just can't wait for everything!

Audiobooks.com

So I have recently been into audio books and started getting them through Itunes but I  wanted to find something that was easier to use. I ended up searching and finding Audiobooks.com and was surprised at how much there really is in audiobooks. It's a monthly subscription for about $14.99 and you get a credit each month for a new book to read. when you sign up you get a free book cause your first month is free. You can make a wish list of all the books that you are wanting to read/have read to you and then when you have a new credit you can go ahead and read away! so far I am on book number 2 and really happy about it. I am a generally busy person and love to read but unfortunately never have time to just sit down and read a book as much as I might try it just never happens. This allows me to read the books I have been wanting to read while I do the things I have to get done during the day. So if you are looking for a good Audio book app I would defiantly recommend Audiobooks.com!

I'm Back!!

Wow it has actually been forever since I last wrote anything on here. A lot of things have changed that's for sure. I'm currently laying in bed listening to L snore in her bed I find it so funny how much noise one little person can make at night if she's not snoring she's talking
In her sleep or she's doing both haha. I'm having a hard time getting to sleep tonight so I thought what better time then now to go through my emails and clean out my inbox and then I realized that this blog was still active and sitting here all lonely for over a year now. So I thought what the heck lets get this puppy going again. So here I am making the first blog post on here of 2017! It was just the other day that I was sitting on my computer thinking gosh I miss blogging well here I am. Hello again world! Well it's been a while and here's the update I'm still a single mom. I still live with my family (still have a house goal). I now work for myself and no longer work for a company so I work from home yay! L starts school this year (OMG I can't believe she is getting so old). At this point L is still in daycare but will only be there for another couple of months while I get some things sorted out and then she will have 2 months home with me. :) I'm so excited to have her home with me everyday during the summer I'm positive she is going to love it too. She is so excited for school she can't wait. I'm excited as well cause with me now working for myself I can make my own hours and actually try and enjoy the summer with L instead of having to get up and go to work every morning or night. Don't get me wrong I work everyday anyways but I get to make the hours and say hey I'm done working for the day whenever I want so it should make for a good summer. Well I'm going to leave it at that tonight and I will hopefully get back to this and try and post More regularly! Night!

Hectic

My life has become a non stop hectic roller coaster. Between having a 2 year old who all of the sudden has a problem with listening to working 2 jobs, sleep deprivation and trying to save as much money as possible while still keeping up with the bills not to mention that I'm basically doing it all on my own with support from my parents and sister as once in a while babysitters. You know you work a lot when your child notices it. My dad asked me to come and help him with something while I was in the midst of editing and L goes "no papa mommy is working she's working ok papa," at that point I knew it was time to put the work away and have some L time. I hate when I don't always get to see her but I know that I have the best intentions. I'm trying my hardest to build a life for us. To be continued (I'm falling asleep writing this) 

The struggle GAH!

I hate when you finally feel like everything is coming together and your feeling really good about things happening in your life. And then all of the sudden you get punched in the gut! I was finally feeling like I was getting somewhere with being able to put away a good chunk of money into my savings and also be able to give my parents some "rent" money to help them out with bills and stuff. All of the sudden you get told by your biggest expense the lovely daycare that they are going to be raising their prices and your child has to be full time to keep your daycare spot. FML!! I now have to pay $220 more a month in daycare and there really isn't much I can do about it at this point it's what Most daycares around here charged and I stupidly am not able to get subsidy for daycare which I would essentially have daycare totally covered if I did because I don't work a 9-5 job my job usually starts at 2 so they won't cover daycare. Awesome! Not! So this is where being a single mother and the total supporter sucks ass! I just keep telling myself that I'm going to come out on top and I will prevail I will make it! But OMG I can't deal with anymore curve balls or expenses cause as well as this lovely increase I also have a ton of dental bills about to come up if I do actually go to my appointment which I am strongly thinking about cancelling it at this point cause this momma is pretty broke right now. 

Doing things for myself!

So lately I haven't been doing anything for myself. Everything has been working working working some more taking care of my awesome daughter doing more work and so on and so fourth. I really haven't been taking care of myself the way I should be. I wasn't wearing makeup basically I would make sure my kid looked cute and I would walk out of the house looking like a hobo. I would throw my hair up in a bun or pony no makeup and go to work. I was feeling pretty shitty and not pretty at all. I finally decided the other day that enough was enough and I need to do more for myself especially with my life getting so busy I need to keep onto of making myself feel good and healthy. Therefore I went and got some new stuff which I will blog fully about in another post but I got a face cleansing water and moisturizer. Some new make up which I love!! Which I will also put in another blog. And the best of all I started blogging again. I even took the time yesterday to do my nails which I'm pretty happy with!

I also love! My new mug that I got at chapters for $8 😁. The next step in improving my life is to start eating better and get into a workout routine. 

I'm also currently trying to save up for a down payment on a house for L and myself cause I want to finally be independent. Business is picking up which I am so excited about and I'm really just working my ass off these days to bring in as much as I can to help make the best life for L. Fingers crossed it keeps staying busy and gets even busier next year! 

It's been a while

Well it's been a while since I last posted on here. I've been trying to figure out my life and spending as much time as I can on my daughter. I've started to become very busy in the last few months with both my jobs it's stressful but great. Life is starting to go in a direction that I am happy about and I'm really looking forward to it becoming so much better.  There is so much to look forward to!