A scary night! It could have been so much worse!

It could have been so much worse and I am so happy that everything worked out and that myself and my car are ok. 

The other day I had to go out of town for work to another city about an hour away from where I live. I hadn’t driven on the highway since getting my license and I was slightly nervous about it but then I wasn’t if you can understand what I am trying to say. Any ways my dad had taken me out to where I had to go a few days before so that any anxiety would not be an issue because I knew where I was going and how to get there. 

I have a lot of anxiety but over the years I have learned how to mostly overcome a lot of it. For me the anxiety of driving is not driving its self but its the getting into the car that I get anxious about once I'm in the car I am anxiety free and feel pretty calm. 

So the day came and I had to get into my car take a few deep breaths and make my way to the highway I was able to make it to where I was going with no real issues other than that one stupid transport that is being risky on the highway but when do you not have one of those. I went and did my day of work and was finished around 9pm. I got into my car and headed for home. The lights on my car are automatic so I didn't have an issue just starting up the car and heading on my way. I don't drive very much at night and had never driven on the highway at night so this day was just a bunch of firsts for me. 

I'm trucking along on the highway doing 110 and the highway is pretty quiet at this point there aren't a whole lot of cars on the road which was nice compared to earlier in the morning. I see the sign for the town over from where I live and I am relieved to see I am almost home as it had been a long day. All of the sudden my headlights shut off! So here I am first time driving at night on the highway going 110 with no lights in the pitch black. Let me tell you at this point there is a ton of swearing going on as I am playing with the knobs to my left trying to get my lights to come on not able to see in front of me and I can here I'm off on the shoulder because I can hear the grinding of the beveled parts to tell you your going off the road. I can't pull off to the other side of the road because there are construction cones so I'm trying to think of what the hell I was supposed to do. I turn on my signal light to see if that is working and to hopefully show anyone that might be behind me that I am in the road ( I didn't even think to put my hazard lights on till later). Low and behold my friggin lights came back on right after turning my signal on!! 

I of course told Siri to call home and swore up and down to my parents telling them what just happened! I am so glad that I didn't run into the median or go off the road and I was able to keep calm enough to keep going but holy crap! 

I am thankful for myself and my car to be alive and unharmed! You better believe ole Bessie is going in for a check up sometime this week. 

Going to school, turning 4 and life

In Just a few more months L will be going for her first day of school! Aww my little girl is growing up so fast I can't believe it. In only 3 days she is going to be a 4 year old! How did this happen!? I know how it happened I just mean that time has gone so fast. I can remember holding her when she was first born and thinking to myself that school and her being 4 was so far away boy was I wrong. She is a pretty Special person that I can say for sure. She is very very friendly when it comes to other kids and can make friends within a minute of meeting them. I'm hoping thats a good sign for when she starts school. She knows her full name and can verbally spell her first and last name and can write her first name and we are just working on her last name. She can tell you what my name is and where she lives and even what country she lives in.

She is counting down the days this morning she woke up and goes mommy theres only 3 more days till my birthday! My dad and I went out last night and bought some party supplies, She has been asking for a unicorn piñata like a crazy person so of course as a good mother I went and got her one. Unfortunately they were all out of unicorn balloons so we just got a giant 4. I so excited to celebrate her birthday with her this year we aren't totally celebrating it on her actual birthday but the day after and we have family and friends coming out to our cabin that we are renting for the weekend. She doesn't know that everyone is coming out yet. I'm hoping to surprise her as she has been asking people to come and hide with the lights out and she will walk in and we will surprise her haha what a kid.

Tomorrow my life may change for the better! I go for my driving test tomorrow and I'm super excited about it and just can't wait to be able to just go whenever I want. I think it is going to open up the summer for L an I to get out and do a lot more and have some fun. I think it will also help with business as well. Thats something I'm looking forward to. It's actually funny for me because I really am not nervous about the test or driving in general but I know before I even started driving it scared the crap out of me. Now I am not nervous at all. I just got back from my lesson today and she thinks I'm going to do well on the test tomorrow so that makes me feel good tomorrow we will go out again and do another drive and then I have my test. Wish me Luck!!

SO NERVOUS!

So today is the day it's my first in car driving lesson. I have only driven 2 other times in the last 2 years and that was in the country. I have never driven in the city and it scares the crap out of me. did I mention its also raining today! Gah I have butterflies! I know I will be fine and I'm going to do fine it just all makes me nervous. Thats the point of having an instructor to teach me how to do all this so I really shouldn't be that nervous cause she will be there.

I am however excited to get driving and learning so that I can get my license and have more freedom. I have had a car sitting in the driveway waiting for me for the last 2 years. I think its definitely time to get this done and over with and rip off the bandaid.

There is so much that this will allow me to do and I think I will feel better about myself as well. I will be able to just get out and go. Take L to do things on our own without needing anyone else to take us. Maybe I can even get L into gymnastics and be able to take her on my own so that it doesn't depend on what anyone else is doing.

Oh great now its snowing wish me Luck!